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		<title>Looking for Hope</title>
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					<description><![CDATA[Marianne laid her head in her hands. The real estate office was empty of employees. It was past time to go home. “But what’s at home? I’ve spent my life building this company. I’ve got nobody. No one cares about me as me. I’m just the old mean boss aka slave driver. I’ve sacrificed love [&#8230;]]]></description>
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<p>Marianne laid her head in her hands. The real estate office was empty of employees. It was past time to go home. “But what’s at home? I’ve spent my life building this company. I’ve got nobody. No one cares about me as me. I’m just the old mean boss aka slave driver. I’ve sacrificed love and family for this and where has it got me?”<br>A still small voice seemed to speak to her with words she couldn’t deny. “It’s not too late.”<br>“But it is Lord. The doctor says a few more months at most before this cancer takes me.”<br>“It’s not too late.”<br>Marianne shook her head. I wish I knew where my daughter was. I could leave her something of material value. I’ve got more money than I could ever use. The daughter she gave birth to when she was seventeen had been given up for adoption the day she was born. Marianne had not spent one day since where she did not wish she had made a different decision. As hard as it would have been to raise that little girl when she was so young herself and so alone, at least now, when she needed it most, she would have someone to love.<br>It was only a week until Christmas. It didn’t matter though. There was no one to buy gifts for. She hosted the annual office party every year but her salespeople came for the bonus checks she handed out, not to enjoy the holiday with her. She worked them hard, expected much and paid them well for their efforts. She was their boss, not their friend.<br>Later that evening a knock sounded on her door. Her house was located outside of town. Not many folks came by this way. She swung open the door to see thick snow swirling about a tall thin man whose coat didn’t look thick enough to keep out the intense cold.<br>“Sorry to bother you ma’am. My car broke down not far from here. Might I use your phone?”<br>Marianne was a little afraid to ask him into the house but she couldn’t leave him standing in the cold. “Of course.” She stood aside<br>She watched as the man punched in the number and waited then hung up in obvious frustration. “Just the answering machine.”<br>“Perhaps you could call a tow service.”<br>“Thank you, but I can’t wait that long.’<br>“A taxi then.”<br>“No, I can’t afford it.” The man looked as if he were close to panic. He closed his eyes for a moment and Marianne had the distinct impression that he was praying. He opened them again and looked around nervously. “Thank you for your kindness. I’ll just go back to the car and hope someone happens by soon to give us a lift into town.”<br>Us? Was someone waiting in the car on this cold night? “Oh my goodness. Go get whoever you’ve got with you and bring them in here where it’s warm.”<br>The man shook his head. “Once again, thank you, but you don’t understand. My wife, she… we’re on our way to the hospital. She thinks it’s time for the baby to arrive.”<br>Marianne gasped. The words came with no thought behind them. “Get your wife and I’ll go get my car started. I’ll drive you to the hospital.”<br>The man looked embarrassed but relieved. “Thank you.” He did not hesitate but hurried back out the front door.<br>Marianne grabbed her purse and car keys, meeting the man and his wife at the foot of her long driveway. The snow was coming down harder but she couldn’t think of that now. The woman moaned softly as she slid into the backseat followed by her husband. “Thank you,” she murmured.<br>Marianne could hear the man comforting his wife as best he could but she did not try to talk to them. It took all her concentration to drive through the snow and remain on the road. Nearly 30 minutes later she pulled under the cement canopy where the red neon sign flashed the word “EMERGENCY.”<br>She followed them inside and stood with them while the man answered the inevitable questions.<br>“Name?”<br>“Angel Neufeld.”<br>“Age?”<br>“26.”<br>“Birth date?”<br>“December 24th, 1985.”<br>Marianne gasped.<br>“Address?”<br>“1216 Martin Street.”<br>“Health insurance?”<br>“None.”<br>The woman behind the computer looked up. “Medical card?”<br>“No. I lost my job and insurance a month ago. We haven’t had time to qualify for assistance yet.”<br>“I see.”<br>Marianne couldn’t bear to hear any more. She put an arm around Angel and moved her gently to the waiting room chairs. The younger woman continued to moan, her hands pressed against her swollen belly. “It’ll be all right. Someone will be here soon to help. I’m Marianne. I’ll stay with you until your husband is done registering.”<br>Angel only nodded.<br>It seemed a long while until the man finished at the desk. “Oh, Carl,” Angel breathed. “It hurts.”<br>“I know honey. They’re getting a wheelchair for you to take us up to labor and delivery. It won’t be long now.”<br>“Will it be OK? About the insurance, I mean.”<br>Marianne watched as a tight look crossed his face. “Of course it will. Don’t worry about a thing but getting our baby here. God is with us.”<br>Angel nodded but bent in pain as another contraction must have grabbed her. Marianne wanted badly to ask more questions.<br>“Is there anything else I can do? What about your parents? Can I call someone?”<br>“We have no family near here. I…I can’t pay you for your trouble but my wife and I thank you. I don’t know what we would have done without you.”<br>“I’m glad to do it.” A nurse arrived with the wheelchair.<br>“All right Mrs. Neufeld. Let’s get you upstairs.”<br>Marianne wondered if she was the only one who thought the nurse’s tone was a bit terse. She watched mutely as Angel was wheeled away followed closely by her husband. Perhaps she should stay, make sure everything went OK. But the Neufeld’s hadn’t asked her to. How would Mr. Neufeld get home? Perhaps he would be here all night waiting for the baby to be born.<br>Angel was born the very day she gave birth to the daughter that had gone up for adoption. Angel had the same color hair and eyes as Mark Kendrick, the boy she had thought herself in love with all those years ago. No. It wasn’t possible and she wouldn’t let herself think about that day. She would never know her daughter this side of heaven.<br>Marianne thought about the address the Neufelds had given. 1216 Martin. She’d sold a house in that neighborhood not long ago. Old stately homes but most of them had become rundown and rather shabby looking. What were they doing out by my house when they live here in town?<br>I planned it that way.<br>Who said that? Marianne almost turned around but she knew no one was there. All at once she knew what she had to do. She found her credit card and approached the registration desk.</p>



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<p>Two days later Carl Neufeld watched his wife as she held their newborn daughter in her arms. Odd how the kind lady who had given them a ride had the same off center bend to the upper lip when she smiled. He wished he’d remembered to get her name before she left. “I’ll be right back, Sweetheart. I have to pay the bill and call a cab.”<br>Angel’s smile faded. “But how…?”<br>“Don’t worry. It’ll be all right.”<br>Carl trudged down the white tiled hallway. Somehow he would have to arrange with the billing office for a payment plan. He had less than $20 in his pocket and the bank account was overdrawn. He’d been praying all morning that he had enough to pay for the taxi. “Oh God, please help me,” he whispered pleadingly.<br>He approached the payment window. “Uh, I’m Carl Neufeld. My wife is Angel Neufeld. Maternity floor. She’s been released.”<br>He waited for the smile on the woman’s face to fade as she punched the keys on her computer. “Oh yes, Mr. Neufeld. Congratulations on the birth of your daughter. I see your account has been paid in full.”<br>Carl’s mouth fell open but before he could protest the woman continued. “Here you’ll need this.” She tore a perforated form from her clipboard. “Just hand this to the dismissal nurse. Oh, and I have something else for you.”<br>She reached into her desk drawer and handed him an envelope. “It’s in the east parking lot. Good luck with that new baby. Thank you Mr. Neufeld.”<br>In a daze, Carl accepted the items she handed him and slowly turned away. Paid in full? East parking lot? There had to be some mistake. He clutched the envelope. Something hard was inside. He tore off the edge causing keys to fall out and jingle as they hit the floor. He bent to retrieve them. Car keys. His car keys and the extra house key. His key ring with the onyx inset his father gave him before he died. He must have left them in the ignition the night the car stalled.<br>How…? He turned back to look at the pay window but the cashier was now busy with someone else. He shrugged tossed the keys into the air, caught them in his fist and placed them in his pocket. No way would he find his car in the east parking lot but he had to look. He opened the glass doors on the east side of the hospital and his gaze traveled around the parking lot. Yes, right there in the third row set his blue Chevy, freshly washed and waxed if he wasn’t mistaken.<br>He loped to the driver’s door, unlocked it and crawled in. Hardly daring to breathe he turned the key in the ignition. The engine roared to life. Now why couldn’t it do that two days ago when he was trying to get Angel to the hospital in the snowstorm? Caught out in the country like that, delivering the pine cone wreath to the cemetery where Angel’s adoptive parents were buried. “Thank you, God.” He didn’t understand any of this but he did believe in answered prayer.<br>An hour later he pulled into their driveway. Home looked wonderful. He hadn’t left the hospital since the night little Michelle was born. He’d slept on a cot in Angel’s room. He had the same clothes on he was wearing the night of the storm. He’d eaten only what Angel didn’t eat from her hospital meals. He’d saved every cent he could just to get his wife and daughter home. He hoped they had enough food to get them through the next few days.<br>“Stay here, honey. I’ll get her in the house then come help you.”<br>He got out of the car and unstrapped the baby from her hospital issued car seat. Holding her carefully, wrapped in blankets against the cold, he opened the front door and flipped on the light. Then he simply stared. The walls were freshly painted. New carpeting had been laid and new furniture filled the rooms. A huge decorated Christmas tree stood in the corner, piles of wrapped packages beneath it.<br>Maybe I have the wrong house. But no, there was their wedding picture on the end table and the books lining the new bookshelves were the ones that belonged to him and Angel. As if seeing it all for the first time, Carl walked through each room of the house and stared. Everything was changed. Everything that had been old and shabby was now new and fresh. When he came to the room they prepared for the baby he stood stock still, his mouth gaping. The plain white walls had been papered in light pink with frills, ruffles, lace and baby dolls. New white carpeting felt soft and spongy under his feet. The old baby crib they found at the Goodwill store had been replaced by a beautiful new crib with new pink bedding and bumper pads. A mobile hung from the ceiling. A changing table against the wall was stacked with diapers, baby powder and other supplies. The closet door stood ajar revealing tiny outfits of various colors and sizes. A shelf full of stuffed animals ran the length of the wall and a brand new walnut rocking chair sat near the crib.<br>Feeling himself go weak in the knees, Carl laid the sleeping Michelle in the new crib and then wiped the tears from his eyes. He heard a slight sound from the doorway and turned to see Angel staring at him. Oh no! I left her sitting in the car. How long ago was that?<br>She came to him and stood staring at him, tears coursing down her cheeks. He stared blankly back at her. He had no explanations for the questions in her eyes.<br>At that moment the phone rang. Carl hurried to the kitchen to answer it. As he spoke on the phone, Angel joined him in the kitchen and he watched her opening cupboards and the new refrigerator, revealing fully stocked shelves and cases of baby formula piled in the laundry room beside the new washer and dryer. She thumbed through the contents of a thick folder lying on the new counter top, her eyes wide.<br>“Yes. Thank you, sir. I’ll see you then.” He hung up the phone and pulled his wife into his arms. “I start work at the Larsen Construction Company day after New Years. I’ll be making more money than I ever did at Crandall’s. Family health insurance is provided.”<br>“Did you apply there?”<br>“Yes, a couple weeks ago. They said they had no openings.”<br>She motioned to the folder. “Contracts, all marked paid. New siding, new windows, new roof, landscaping, all scheduled for next spring. Carl, how did all this happen?”<br>“I don’t know.” He sank into one of the chairs around the new kitchen table. For the first time he noticed a small white envelope propped against the wooden napkin holder. With shaking fingers he reached for it.<br>Making your lives a little brighter has brightened mine more than you’ll ever know. Thanking you from the bottom of my heart.<br>“It’s not signed?”<br>“No.”<br>“Carl, we have an angel. Our very own angel.”<br>Carl looked into the eyes of his wife, still full of glistening tears. “I already have an Angel. And a Michelle. And an incredibly awesome God.”</p>
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		<pubDate>Sat, 07 Dec 2024 20:42:09 +0000</pubDate>
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					<description><![CDATA[Snow fell as I turned the key in the ignition. Nothing. I slammed the car door.“Fine. I’ll just spend Christmas Eve alone in a truck stop.”I stepped inside. The place was crowded. Didn’t these truckers have any better place to spend the holiday? Maybe it was this awful snowstorm. I couldn’t see an empty table.A [&#8230;]]]></description>
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<p>Snow fell as I turned the key in the ignition. Nothing. I slammed the car door.<br>“Fine. I’ll just spend Christmas Eve alone in a truck stop.”<br>I stepped inside. The place was crowded. Didn’t these truckers have any better place to spend the holiday? Maybe it was this awful snowstorm. I couldn’t see an empty table.<br>A child’s voice sounded above the din. “You could sit here. There’s a place by me.”<br>I stood near a circular booth occupied by a man and three children. I smiled at the little girl.<br>“Thanks, honey, but I don’t want to intrude on your family.”<br>The man beside her stood. “No intrusion, ma’am. We’d be honored to have you join us.”<br>“Well if you’re sure you wouldn’t mind. . .”<br>The man offered me his hand across the table. “Tom Conway. Merry Christmas. This is Jenna, Jeff and Jacob. Please, have a seat.”<br>I slid in beside Jenna. “Faith Rogers. Nice to meet you.” Four pairs of eyes stared at me.<br>The waitress appeared. “What can I get you?”<br>The others didn’t have their food yet. “Cheeseburger with fries, please and coffee.”<br>“So, where you all from?” I asked.<br>“Clifton, about 30 miles from here. You?”<br>“Really? That’s where I live. I teach at Roosevelt Jr. High. I’ve been to Lytell to visit my parents for Christmas. I hoped to make it home before the storm got too bad. But, I stopped here for gas, and now my battery’s dead.<br>Tom’s smile seemed tight. “Is someone coming to get you?”<br>“I should probably call my dad but it’s 60 miles from Lytell and I hate to have him out in this storm. Maybe I’ll find a motel and wait it out.”<br>“I don’t think there’s much around here in the way of motels. Did you check with the truck stop’s mechanic’s shop?”<br>“Thanks, that’s a great idea.”<br>The waitress arrived with an enormous burger surrounded by golden fries. That was quick.<br>I picked up a fry, aware of the little eyes staring at my plate. Maybe I should wait until their food arrived. I put the fry back down.<br>“Oh, please, go ahead,” Tom urged. “Kids, let Ms. Rogers be.”<br>Jenna’s blue eyes filled with tears. “But, I’m hungry.”<br>“Yeah, me too,” Jeff piped in. “Could I have one of those fries?”<br>“I’m sure your food will be here soon.”<br>“No it won’t!” Jacob insisted. “We can’t order nothin’ cause he won’t let us.”<br>Tom looked embarrassed. “We were on our way home and I pulled in here for gas. I filled the tank before I realized my wallet was missing. Probably lost it in the couch cushions back at Mom’s. Anyway, no cash, no credit cards. I called my brother but he had to turn back when they closed the highway north of here. Until he can make it, we’re stranded. I can’t leave until the gas is paid for.”<br>I stared at the plate in front of me. I couldn’t eat in front of these children. Was there enough to share? The waitress appeared again. “Anything else?”<br>I heard myself answer. “Yes, four more burgers with fries, please.” Tom looked startled. “That is, if it’s all right with your dad?”<br>“He ain’t our dad,” Jenna put in. “Can I have a hamburger? Please, Uncle Tom?”<br>Tom hesitated, the red deepening in his cheeks. Finally he nodded.<br>“Thank you for your kindness. I’ll reimburse you, of course. If it weren’t for the children. . .”<br>“I understand,” I interrupted. “Happy to do it. We can’t have these kids going hungry on Christmas Eve.”<br>The food arrived and the children dived in. Tom looked uncomfortable, but he also ate heartily. When the waitress refilled my coffee, I asked about the mechanic’s shop. She shook her head.<br>“Closed up for the holiday. Be open 8:00 a.m. the 26th.”<br>Tom cleared his throat. “Uh, Miss Rogers. . .”<br>“Please call me Faith.”<br>“Faith, forgive me. I wouldn’t ask if our circumstances weren’t so dire but…”<br>I was thinking the same thing. “Perhaps I could pay your gasoline bill then you could offer me a ride home.” There. I said it. I wondered if I had ‘gullible’ written across my forehead.<br>“I’ll pay you back.”<br>I paid for the food and the gas. Soon we were on the road to Clifton.<br>It was slow going but at last, the lights of Clifton came into view. I directed Tom to my house and thanked him for the ride. Sinking into the comfort of my recliner, I realized Tom hadn’t asked for my phone number.<br>“I’ll never see that money again,” I lamented.<br>The doorbell startled me the next afternoon. Who would be visiting today? I opened the door a few inches. “Need your signature for the delivery, ma’am.”<br>“Delivery?”<br>“Your car. Keys are in the ignition.”<br>He motioned to the driveway where my car was now parked. Another car waited behind it.<br>“Oh, Mr. Conway said to give you this.”<br>“M…Mr. Conway?”<br>The man nodded as I accepted the envelope. “Merry Christmas.”<br>“Merry Christmas,” I called weakly.<br>I ripped open the envelope and unfolded the paper.<br>I took the liberty of having a new battery installed in your car. Many thanks for your generosity and kindness. Yours truly, Tom Conway.<br>A check was enclosed and a gasp caught in my throat as I glanced at it. The amount was well in excess of what I paid for the hamburgers and gasoline.<br>I read the note again. What kind of mechanic went out of town to install a new battery on Christmas Day? A business card was stapled to the note.<br>Thomas Conway<br>CEO<br>Conway Motors</p>



<p>The Thomas Conway? The wealthiest bachelor in town? No – it couldn’t be. A telephone number on the card was circled in red ink. I dialed it.<br>“Tom Conway.”<br>“T…Tom? It’s Faith. Th…thank you.”<br>His voice was soft and gentle. “Faith. I was hoping you would call</p>
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					<description><![CDATA[Through Love-Colored Glasses “I don’t know what it is, Jackie. I just can’t seem to find the romance anymore. It’s like we’ve been married so long we’re just, well, ordinary, I guess. I can’t even remember the last time Dave brought me flowers or took me to dinner. ““That’s what happens to most married couples [&#8230;]]]></description>
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<p>“I don’t know what it is, Jackie. I just can’t seem to find the romance anymore. It’s like we’ve been married so long we’re just, well, ordinary, I guess. I can’t even remember the last time Dave brought me flowers or took me to dinner. “<br>“That’s what happens to most married couples when they start having kids. I wouldn’t worry about it Lise. Dave loves you. You guys are just busy with work and Katie and the baby.”<br>“I know. I’m not worried, really. I just miss the old days when life was more spontaneous and fun. Now everything is just practical. I’m always tired and one of the children always needs something. Dave tries to help, but he just doesn’t understand what I really need. The other night he offered to watch a movie with Katie so I could have time to pick up the house and finish the laundry.”<br>I heard Jackie’s laughter roll over the phone line. “Count your blessings, girl. That man is a gem even if he’s not so well polished at times.”<br>A whimper that quickly turned into a loud squall came over the baby monitor on the kitchen counter. “Hey, I gotta go. Michael’s awake. Talk to you later, Jax.”<br>I hung up the phone and raced up the stairs to pick up the wailing baby from his crib. Katie was in the baby’s room waiting for me. “I couldn’t make him stop crying, Mama. I tried.”<br>“I know, honey. I think he needs changing. Wanna help? Then maybe you can give him a bottle of juice.”<br>“Okay.” For a five-year-old, she was actually pretty helpful with the baby. “Mommy, can I take off my glasses while Mikey drinks his juice?”<br>I sighed. The battle over the glasses was still raging. “Why would you want to do that, Sweetie? The doctor said you need to wear them all the time unless you’re sleeping. That will help make your eyes better.” A case of hyperopia required Katie to wear glasses for at least a year. She was less than thrilled. In fact, she was downright mad about it for awhile. She had slowly come to a state of unhappy acceptance of the cute little pink frames she had chosen. Any opportunity to take them off was taken advantage of immediately.<br>“I don’t think Mikey likes my glasses. He looks at me when I feed him and he likes to see my eyes. His eyes laugh at me and he wants mine to laugh back at him.”<br>I hid my smile. What a sweet thought, eyes laughing at each other. “Mikey can see your eyes just fine through your glasses, honey.”<br>She shrugged. “I guess.”<br>It was time to change the subject. “What would you like Santa to bring you this year? Christmas is only a few weeks away, you know.” I was sure she would say a doll stroller. She had talked about it non-stop for the last few months. I bought one weeks ago and tucked it away in the top shelf of my closet until Christmas morning.<br>She looked down at the doll she held in her arms. Anna went everywhere with Katie, even to kindergarten sometimes. She looked thoughtfully at the doll with long blonde curls just like hers. Her answer was slow but decisive. “Anna wants pink glasses like mine.”<br>I started, shocked by my daughter’s answer. What should I say? “I’m not sure they have pink glasses at the North Pole. I bet they have some really pretty new clothes that would just fit Anna, though.” I knew Grandma had been busy at her sewing machine turning out a new wardrobe for Anna that would make any doll envious.<br>Katie held Anna’s face to her ear for a moment then shook her head vigorously. “Anna says she wants pink glasses so we can be like twins together.”<br>And so it began. For the next three days Katie talked of nothing but pink glasses for Anna. Frantically, I searched every department store in town while she was in morning kindergarten, but to no avail. The more I pushed Mikey’s stroller through the mall, Wal-Mart, even the grocery store toy aisle, I couldn’t find anything even close to pink doll glasses. If I didn’t come up with something soon, I would have a very disappointed little girl on Christmas morning.<br>Dave was no help at all. When Katie told him excitedly that Santa was going to bring Anna some glasses just like hers, he grinned at her. “Hey, that’d be great, honey,” he told her. “I bet Anna looks just as beautiful as you when she wears them.”<br>I tried to motion wildly to him from behind, but he didn’t get it. He watched all my antics with a confused look, then turned his attention back to Katie and the Christmas show they were watching on TV.<br>Later, I explained my dilemma. “There is no such thing,” I lamented. “I can’t find anything remotely resembling pink glasses for a doll. I’ve been all over town.”<br>He patted my shoulder, rather condescendingly, I thought. “I’m sure something will turn up. I’ve never known Santa Claus to fail our daughter yet.”<br>I know he meant it as a compliment, but I got so angry with him I stormed off to the kitchen without another word. If Anna was to have pink glasses, it was going to be up to me.<br>After I took Katie to school the next morning, the phone rang. “Hello.”<br>“Hi, Lisa. It’s Jackie. I’ve got an idea about the pink glasses thing.”<br>“Tell me. I could use a good idea about now.”<br>“Have you checked in the hobby shops? Lots of people make dolls. At least I think they still do, and they have to get their supplies somewhere. If anyone has doll glasses it’d be them.”<br>A smile curved my lips. “Yeah, thanks Jax. That’s a great idea. I’ll go as soon as I give Michael his breakfast. Wanna come along?”<br>“Okay. See ya in a bit then.”<br>I breathed a little easier. Maybe Jackie’s plan had some merit. Still, pink doll glasses? I wouldn’t get my hopes up too high.<br>“Do you carry doll making supplies?”<br>The frazzled store clerk pointed off in the direction of the back of the store. “Aisle 14.” She turned back to the Christmas ornament storage containers she was arranging on the bargain shelves.<br>Jackie and I made our way to aisle 14 and found ourselves surrounded by displays of doll clothes, lace trimmings, and various body parts I supposed could be put together to make something resembling a doll. If one knew how to do such a thing, of course. “Here’s the eyes”, Jackie called excitedly. “There’s got to be some glasses here somewhere.”<br>I eased the stroller down the narrow aisle. “Do you see anything pink?”<br>“I’m looking. Hey, here’s some glasses.” Jackie’s voice was far from triumphant. She held up a little plastic bag with six pairs of gold wire rimmed spectacles. “How would Anna look in a pair of these?”<br>My hopes bottomed out. “Is that all there is? Don’t they have anything pink? Katie won’t even recognize those things as glasses. For one thing, there’s no glass in them. They look like they belong halfway down the nose of an old granny doll.”<br>“Hmmm. . . well, um, hey! I know. Maybe we could paint them!”<br>“I don’t know, Jackie. Painting wire doll glasses?”<br>“We gotta try. Come on.”<br>I wheeled the stroller behind her as she raced off to the paint supplies. We stared at the assortment of bottles, tubes, cans, brushes, thinners, everything imaginable to paint something except the instructions. “What do you think, Lise?”<br>I gazed at the plastic bag of spectacle rims in my hand. “I think you’re crazy.”<br>“Maybe so,” she admitted. “Here, let’s try this,” she said reaching for an aerosol can labeled ‘Pink Perfection.’ “This way we won’t need any brushes.”<br>I shrugged. My hopes in creating a pair of glasses for Anna that met with Katie’s approval had dwindled to nothing. I paid for the spectacles and paint and we left the store.<br>Back at home I laid newspapers on the ground in the backyard and spread the little wire contraptions out on top of them. They didn’t even look like real glasses. “Hmm. . . just wait’ll you paint ‘em pink,” I mumbled. I shook the can and aimed it at the wire.<br>An hour later, when I surveyed the results of my labors while Katie was watching Blues Clues, I wanted to cry. The pink paint covered the wire in places – and in other places it didn’t. Where there was paint, the gold wire had turned a grotesque shade of pinkish brown that reminded me of chewed bubble gum that had been stuck on the bottom of the table for a few days. They would have to do. Katie would be so disappointed, but I supposed it was better than no glasses at all.<br>I told Dave that night about my attempt at painting the frames. I could see him trying to hide a smile. “Honey, you tried. I’m sure Katie will be fine with it.” He went back to his newspaper.<br>“But you don’t understand,” I wailed knowing I sounded like a plaintive child. “Katie is so self- conscious about her glasses. Anna needs glasses to help Katie feel better about hers. She told me one of the girls at school called her ‘Four-Eyes’ today. Where do kids learn that stuff so early on?”<br>Dave only shrugged. “Hey hon, is there any of that butter brickle ice cream left? That’d go great with a cup of hot coffee.”<br>I sighed deeply with a long “Huuuuuuuuu……………” on the end, but Dave didn’t look up from his paper. Clearly, I was on my own with Anna’s glasses, but then I had expected as much.<br>The morning of Christmas Eve, I called my friend Jackie. “Merry Christmas!” she answered brightly.<br>“Hey Jax, it’s Lisa. Merry Christmas.”<br>“Any update on Anna’s glasses?”<br>“No. I guess we’ll just have to give her those horrible wire frames.” I paused. “I don’t mean to sound that way. It was a great idea and I appreciate you trying to help. If it wasn’t for you, I wouldn’t have any glasses for Anna.”<br>“I know. Don’t forget I saw how my ‘great idea’ turned out. I just wish we could have come up with something else.”<br>“Yeah. Ran out of time is all. I wouldn’t mind so much except this is so important to Katie’s self-confidence. Oh, Jackie, she’s so excited. She’s just sure Santa will bring Anna a pair of glasses just like hers and she won’t feel alone anymore. I can’t bear to see her disappointment tomorrow morning.”<br>“It’ll be fine, Lise. She may be disappointed for a while, but she’ll forget about it when she sees her doll stroller.”<br>“You’re right. Of course she will. Thanks for the pep talk. You and Jim have a wonderful Christmas with the boys. I’m sure they’ll love the toboggans.”<br>“They will. Call me next week and let me know how it went, kay?”<br>“Of course. Bye Jax.“ I felt a little better but not much.<br>The rest of the day I just went through the motions. We had our special Christmas Eve dinner of tacos and fixings. Katie hung her stocking and a little one for Michael, then showed him the plate of cookies she planned to leave for Santa.<br>“See, Mikey,” she told him knowingly. “Santa likes cookies a whole bunch and if we leave him some he’ll bring us presents. He’s gonna bring Anna some pink glasses just like mine. I can’t wait for morning!”<br>Dave shot me a quick glance and I shook my head slightly. An odd look crossed his face. He glanced at his wristwatch. “Say, Lise, I forgot to get that package of lemon drops for Dad. He’s kinda got to where he expects them every year. I’m going to run down to the drugstore for a minute. Be right back.”<br>I sighed. So many words I wanted to say like ‘On Christmas Eve?’ or ‘But what about tucking the children in?’ or even ‘I suppose you forgot to buy me a gift like you did last year,’ but I didn’t say any of them. No sense in spoiling Christmas for the kids. “All right.” He kissed Katie and Michael then left, jingling his car keys in his pocket. What an annoying habit!<br>I helped Katie leave a note for Santa, then tucked her into bed. She begged me to read ‘The Night Before Christmas’ as was our tradition. I did but my heart wasn’t in it.<br>Katie’s eyes were shining in gleeful anticipation.<br>“Good night, Sweetie.”<br>“Night, Mommy. Tell Anna good night too.”<br>“Good night, Anna,” I whispered as I turned out the light. “See you in the morning.”<br>I gave Michael another bottle, changed him and put him in his crib. I found the presents for the children in my closet and arranged them under the tree. then filled their stockings alone. Tears glazed my eyes, but I brushed them away impatiently.<br>Dave still wasn’t back so I turned on the TV. How festive was that? Sitting alone on Christmas Eve watching a Lawrence Welk Christmas show rerun. Why couldn’t Dave just be a little bit more thoughtful? Sensitive? Romantic? Logic grabbed me and shook me out of my emotional pity party. What did I want him to do? Not bring his dad his lemon drops? Another sigh.<br>I must have dozed off. The next thing I knew I heard the back door click shut and Dave’s voice called to me. “Lise, you still awake?”<br>I bit back the spiteful retort that came to my lips. “In here, Dave.”<br>He entered the room looking rather sheepish. “Sorry, I’m late. Merry Christmas, hon.”<br>He handed me a paper bag with the Walgreen’s logo on the side. I took it hesitantly. So I was right. He did forget to buy me a gift. “Don’t you want to wait until morning for this?”<br>“Nah. Better open it now. Sorry about the wrapping job.”<br>Reluctant to say the least, I opened the bag and pulled out . . . “What is that thing?” Oh, did I say that out loud?<br>I dared a quick glance at my husband. His grin hadn’t faded in the least. “For your collection,” he said as if anticipating my delight.<br>I tried. I really did. “M. . .my collection?” True, I had a small collection of Santa figurines I sometimes pulled out at Christmas, mostly old world pieces or finely detailed carvings. But this. . . this thing in my hands was absolutely hideous. “Dave, I. . .”<br>“No wait, honey,” he interrupted. “Just look at it.” His voice overflowed with excitement.<br>All right. I examined the thing more closely. It was Santa all right, but not the Santa I knew. This guy, minus his red suit but for the trademark red hat with the white pom-pom, was dressed in red and white striped swim trunks and a white tank top. Unfortunately, the tank top did not quite meet the waistband of the shorts and a huge pot belly hung out of the gap. Santa sat in a white lawn chair, arms stretched out to the side, a calendar in one hand sporting the date of December 26. Apparently, the jolly old man had done his good deed for the year and was now on vacation.<br>Honestly, I didn’t know whether to break out into hysterical laughter or burst into tears. Even Dave had never messed up this badly before. I stared at the grotesque Santa for a moment then turned my glare on the man standing beside me. He still wore the same ridiculous grin. “Uh, thanks,” I croaked, “but no thanks.” I shoved Sunshine Santa back in the bag.<br>Dave never wavered. “Lise, just look at it one more time.” I shook my head. “Please?”<br>Fine. Whatever. I pulled the thing out of the sack again and stared at it.<br>Suddenly, I saw it. I let out a loud gasp as I stared in disbelief. “Oh. . . Dave – how. . .?” I threw my arms around my husband, Santa still grasped tightly in my hand. “How did you ever?”<br>Dave laughed almost boyishly. Even in my current state of Christmas bliss I realized how long it had been since I’d heard him laugh like that. “Thank you, God,” I whispered. “Thank you for blessing me with the most wonderful husband in the world.”<br>I stepped back and stared at the horrid Santa figurine once again. Carefully, I plucked the hot pink plastic glasses from his nose and examined them. “Looks like a perfect fit,” I declared with a loud laugh. “Anna will look so great in these.” I folded the frames and slipped them into the top of Katie’s stocking.<br>“You like your present?” Dave asked.<br>I nodded suddenly unable to speak.<br>He grinned again. “You’ll get your real gift tomorrow.”<br>I let loose a flood of tears conceived of absolute joy. I knew I had been incredibly blessed. God had given me the most thoughtful, sensitive and utterly romantic husband on earth. As far as I was concerned, my ‘real’ gift was standing beside me, holding me in his arms.</p>
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